The Truth, The Pressure, The Peace.
The truth? I hate my body. I don't know how to be me without judging, scolding and hating myself (lovely deeper inner-ego voice). I teach about alignment and authenticity. I believe in life and love and the power of the Self.
It is time for me to put it all out there and practice what I challenge the world to practice every single moment of every single day. And the truth is that this is going to be ugly, hard and frustrating....
The pressure? Myself. My fears. Failing. Again and again and again.... Succeeding... and going into the unknown. The truth.
The peace? Reintroducing myself to myself and loving this beYOUtiful being now and moving forward.... and breathing in the calm that is me... the love that is me... and allowing myself to receive that which is good.
And so it begins....
I. DON'T. WANT. TO. I don't. I don't. I don't. Who wants to go within and take responsibility for their choices while the entire world is watching? No one. And that is the exact reason why I am doing this blog.
I love food. I only know celebration with eating. I hate myself for loving food. I hate that I am now forty two and over weight again. I am tired. I don't want to weigh my portions. I don't want to count calories. I don't want food and my weight to be what continues to define who I am.... because it shouldn’t.
“To get something you‘ve never had you must be willing to do something you’ve never done.” - Wayne Dyer
And so.... for now I breathe. I take small steps and practice soft thoughts... and it works... until I see the picture below and all of the feels start to flow....
This is the first step. Surrender. #SpiritPosse